Ugly Truth

Not sure whether posting this is it a good thing or bad thing.....

There's so many pretty girls out there, whenever I look at their instagrams, damn my self esteem level just went to negative. They post selfie everyday, is like a daily routine to them. People like me, which doesn't have anything to adore people's eyes, thinks that posting selfie everyday is a shame. lol 

I only post pictures of me when i'm out for fancy dinner or friends party, or maybe i'll add some effect in it so that I won't look horrible. HAHAHA. but most of my photos are with someone, someone beside me. I seldom post picture of myself, only. I'm afraid to get judge by peoples, afraid to get nasty comments (ok I know no one will comment on my pictures but some people will talk behind me. hmm) or maybe i'm just shy.... ha ha ha

The boyfriend always cheer me up says that ' no you're beautiful, I'll love to see pictures of  yourself everyday! ' OFCOZ LAH... you are boyfriend ma. Sometimes he actually cheers me up but I still didn't get over with it. Thanks my lovely boyfriend, but the problem is in me. *cries at the corner*

I tried to change myself. YES I MEAN CHANGE. Some people looks good no matter whether are they on glasses or no, *super admire* So I tried to get the permission of wearing contact lenses from my mum, but the answer is always no no no. I guess no means no then. Hurhurhur. I tried to put on makeup before, but with my glasses on, I think I can win the best halloween costume of the year. lolol. I changed my glasses from half frame to full frame. Idk does it looks nicer on me or bad on me, but myself, I think I looks better in full frame teehee. & the boyfie's glasses also full frame! So when everyone saw both of us wearing glasses, they will be like ' wah couple glasses ah? ' hahahahaha ok

I always complain to the bf, he says that I'm just lack of confidence cause he actually have the same feeling with me. HAHA if you know us yeah you know. But then I guess I have to type out all of this only can express the inner feelings out, PS I'M JUST COMPLAINING PLS DUN JUDGE. 

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hello hello! Happy 12 12 12 to everyone in the universe :) Did't update my blog for dunno how many thousand years. Oh well, no one read my blog anyway, except for you, yeah you, the one that reading my blog now :p hahahaha.

After PMR over, I've been went for part time job hunting. Ok I only asked for GSC CINEMA & they tell me to wait for their call. So I did.. for a few days. Slacking at home like a potato everyday, BORING. -_-
So..... there's this Sunday my uncle and my aunt came to my house, and he told me that his office there need people to do date entry for them. So then, I accepted the job. Oh yay! And so den my job life started. Work is boring sometimes, if the whole office w/o anyone talking or fooling around. hahahaha. But then the job is great, pay is great too :) I guess this is the best job I had ever did in my life? ( harlo you did before many job meh? ) ok only one lah. -_- My colleague are the best man. They are damn friendly! First I tot the office will be super scary and boring, and everyone will be like super busy everyday. But then they work super relexing, (maybe not to stress out yourself hohoho) They even bring lots of snacks and share with everyone when there's free time. AWESOME \o/ Guess I gained lots of weights for the whole month? ehehehhehehe.

& then til yesterday, is my last day at there. :c Haven got my salary for this month yet, sooner or later gonna go back and pay a visit to get my salary and meet them again :) whee, can't wait. 

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Days after PMR is getting boring & more boring, but i'm feeling so relax right now! Like finally, everything is over. No more spending day dating with my reference books & tuition. Oh yes yes yes! I actually can't believe everything passed so fast, like just a blink of eye. 

I'm kinda speechless for every paper. Some are hard like a rock, some are easy. Worried for every paper, especially my BM. Hopefully I wont fail & at least get an B, okay lah I don't wanna be greedy, C lah please?  *puppyeyes* hehehe. Okay lah, don't wanna talk about PMR already makes me more worry about my result. ( or maybe I should be worry...) 

Went out with my boy last Saturday. Missed the Genting trip with the others, BIG BIG SIGH. Wanting to go so badly but then cause of some reason. :( :( :( Oh well. At least I did enjoy my day with le boy! Yay happy face again :) :) ! Hehehehe. This is the first time going out with him, alone. Yeah, first time, just the two of us. Normally we will go out with the others too, but then this is kinda a sudden plan, so yeah. :D 

So okay this boy here was craving for meetfresh & teppanyanki. I actually wanted to eat sakae sushi again, but then is kinda boring cause everytime we came out forever sakae sushi. I think even the workers there recognize us. wtf :p hahahahaha. Just joking! We walked around the mall like some lifeless kid, we walked from old wing to new wing, den from new wing to old wing again. Lolll lifeless huh? 

Watched The Fierce Wife, Final Episode with him too! My rating for the movie was okayokay lah. Should have watch the Sinster, a horror movie. I'll probably use my hand cover my eyes through the whole movie.. -.- I admit i'm a scary cat okay, but still wanna go and watch it. hehehehehe. Stubborn me. We chit chat during the whole outing, talked about everything that happen in our daily life. Ah damn I miss you :') 

xoxo I love you babyboo :* 

So tell me why?

Madly in love with this cover man. Can repeat it like over 10 times per hour. I know is kinda, yea, over reacted.Hahaha, but seriously so nice. Ahhhh :')

Fuck this shit seriously. Fuck this fuck that fuck everything. Why did I even did something that I will forget? What the crap. & I don't even know it happened. Dafuq. Not blaming anyone, just myself. Let's get this shit done right now. I'm tired of it, enough of it. & even afraid of it. Dang I wanna hide in my blanket and never get out to face this shit, I wanna cry and express everything.... sigh luckily I still have my blog. Yay me. x 

A quick short update

Sucks at creating a opening for every blog post. lolol ok wtv. 

Have a sudden urge to update my blog. Altho I don't really know what am I gonna crap about at this post. loll. Trials is over, yay for the pmr candidates. Woohoo, but wait guys, PMR is not over yet so nay. On the bright side, raya holiday is coming yay! Popular book fair is coming soon too double YAY x2 ! I'm so gonna convince my mum to bring me go and buy damn lots of novel (; wooohoooo. ps:/ i'm not a bookworm. :p 

So many things happen to us these days. I don't know whats the reason, I miss the old us. We look lovey dovey everyday, no matter twitter or anywhere. Anyone that see us posting sweets things about each others do feel the love too. but what about now? I don't feel it anymore somehow. Maybe we already used to each other, yea maybe. Keep on consoling myself that this is just some challenges that god wants to test our patient to each other. Everytime whenever we feel down together when there's some major problem between us, my heart falls to pieces. *glasses broken pieces sounds* pingpiang! lolll. We talked about it before, but it seems doesn't help at all. Sigh *raise white flag* 

Thank god is SATURDAY! Sad thing is, having tuition on a lovely Saturday ruined everythings. :( 

280712 Ahkweh Bigday!

Is a Saturday, 2807, someone that means a lot to me in my life finally turning 15! And yeah, that's my lovely boy's BIGDAY!

We celebrate his birthday at OU, wanted to give him a big surprise but at last failed. I actually should get the worst planner award ._. , I don't plan well in plans. When some of us reached, we doesn't know what to do, end up went to the pool section near GSC and start pooling! :)

 BEST PATTERN KING AWARD GOES TO .... *drumrolls* 

The birthday boy!

We the girls, went to pool on ourself, separate with the guys. Cause they too pro already, we're just noobie. SAD US. 

 Our macam yes pose!

After one round of pooling for the girls, we went for some shopping :) hehe. Or should I say, walking around lol. Larissa wanted to buy a new case for her baby iPhone, so since while waiting for the guys to finish their game, we went to... somewhere around OU lah. :p

What do girls do when they're in the washroom? HMmmmm.. :p

Ok let's skip skip skip ....

DING DONG! Finally is lunch time! We had our lunch at BBQ Plaza!

Some selca pictures ;) 

Next, the most important part of the day..... 

Happy birthday love! <3 

Made a board for you, full with wishes from the fellow friends! Hope you will like it :) 

ps:you are just too sexy in that photo, i cannot resists & print it out and pasted on that board:p 

Next stop, photo session at the Secret Garden! 

 Group photos! ☺❤

 Sylvester the cat, crazy as usual. 

 Aloha!

 Take #1

Take #2

Except for photo session, guess what we did at there? We played something very childish, CHASE! Looooool. Everyone sweat like waterfall, but had fun tho! Hehehehe. OH btw, we even did some random test there! Look at their serious face :p 

After that, we went to have some desserts at 许留山. A new shop at OneU! All the desserts is mostly mango. Nooms.

Somehow, not really that nice that I actually expected to be & is quite pricey too. :< Should have went to Meetfresh! Bad suggestion from me. Sigh, sorry everyone!

So yeah, that's how we spend our day at ou with the birthday boy! :) Lastly,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BOY <3

Someone finally turning 15 with me! HEHEHE. Growing taller and buffer too wor :p Hope that you did enjoy yourself at this day. ;) You know I love you as always lah, so no need to say de lah. So no sweet things today lah, or not later diabetes again lah. Lah lah lah,malaysian styles. 8D

Okay, last of all, iloveyou babyboy ☺❤ xoxo

The good part of my life.

Hai everyone! It's been awhile since I've came to my blog! Its late night right now, & I have a sudden urge to update my blog since one of my lovely reader told me and say that she's been waiting for my update (': ngawh! I actually thought I just write this blog and syok sendiri, did't know that there's actually someone there reading my blog! I feel loved. <3

Life has been good to me, yeah somehow good. Relationship with the boyfie is great! Getting more understanding and knowing each other more and more. Few outings with le fatty bum in this few months, did't came here to update about it, i'm just too lazy. HAHA. I'll just post up some pictures of us? ;)

 My birthday. 

The latest! Hari Koperasi!

I think he become more pro at changing face when we're selca-ing. Probably affected by me, HAHAHA. I guess he'll become my selca partner next time :p teehee! We had just passed our 8months, time flies. 2 more months and we have been together for one year. Wow. Boyfriend in the same time also my best friend. The best guy listener I had ever seen :') I think he's the only guy that can stand my stupidness & my noisy mouth. & also the most understanding guy friend of mine! *friendzoned* HAHAHA. I love you lah bum x cannot resists your cuteness seriously. :3 

Except for my lovey dovey love life, don't forget my best buddey ever! LARISSALIMXIAOXUAN! Love talking to her & spending my time with her seriously! She is a mad women, crazy about shopping & hot dudes forever. She like buff dude that wear tight shirts and also skinny jeans. Other than that, she love selca looots. Okay wait, every girl do love selca. :p Heh, ok here is some pic with my best buddey (: 

Oh yeah! That day while we're walking at TheCurve, guess who we meet up?!?! Our long lost buddey that had transfer to DJ for already half year, Esther Wong!! Damn, luckily I brought along my polaroid that day so we get to took a pic with her! Ok I think I had described tooo over... but... I miss her alooooot! This friend here, is another crazy one, but she's crazy in another way. Hmmm, or should I say, a unique way? Heh. That's the cuteness of her. :3 

Yay met my new buddy! KaiXuan the pretty tall tall girl with dimples on the cheek! Gah damn I love her dimples damn muchie. Or should I say, I likey peoples who have dimples. They loook so pretty with dimples when they smile :3 

" & When you smile at the ground it ain't hard to tell, you don't know oh oh ~ you don't know you're beautiful. "

HAHAHA This girl here, I can tell you that, SHE LOVES SELCA ALOT. Like seriously! & also tweeting, she must tweet like every sec :p omg. HAHAHA. Nah just joking, but its kinda true tho. lololol shhh :p hehe. 

Lastly, 

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Oh yea! Last month, June, I went to a camp called Delta Camp that organize by Datin Tan from my school! It was awesome. Delta camp is some how like a church camp? I learned lots of things, hmmm, yeah kinda? :) & I can't believe I hold a frog for 10sec! HOMG. I have a proof for it! 

 SEE SEE SEE! Press in the pic and zoom in! ITS A REAL FROG. & I tot it was a jelly or something.... lol okay. Its actually a game that called " Fear Factor " . At first we doesn't know what game is it, until every group had chosen someone to be the one that represent the group & then they will only revealed what's the game. & i'm the chosen one. Lolol. Ok at least I had fun (: ehehehe! 

 Yay for my team! Team Eska! :D

DELT△ CAMP 

Alright, that's all for today & its getting late! I need to get some beauty sleep. 

Ciaos everyone. xoxo